I'm done, and officially out of the wedding industry for a while. I have so much on my plate with the baby, and trying to get caught upon all the clients I already have. I am going to get everything out to my pre-existing clients, take a break and restructure the whole studio for 2010. I plan on doing portraits in the meantime. 2009 is going to be my year to relax, restructure, and re-educate. My studio grew too fast in to short of a time. Not that I am complaining, it is fabulous that I have been blessed with so many great clients but being in business for officially 4 years I have shot over 130 weddings. I haven't had time to breath, really relax and enjoy being married or enjoy watching my little girl grow up. I seriously want to crawl in a hole and die.

I am feeling very blah, artistically snuffed out.40 weddings last year with the pregnancy and then the stress of having a newborn are really taking their toll. I have a slew of very unhappy clients and way too much to do to even make a dent. It seems like the only thing I do is try to get evie to sleep or to play by herself so I can get some work done. I feel like i am a horrible mother for this. She is only going to be little once and i want to be able to enjoy it, not cast her aside all the time. I am finding it very had to find a good balance between baby and work. I wish I could split myself in two, maybe five.